Hope

I suffered from depression and I’m not ashamed to say it anymore cause for me it’s not a thing we have to be ashamed of. Yes, I know what it's like to wake up in the morning and don't want to get up from bed. To hate yourself, your life and everything you do. To always be sad for no reason. To lose the taste for life. To stay in your room for hours, in the dark, crying your heart out. To be full of scars, inside but outside too. To feel tired all day long but can’t sleep at night. To think that your life isn’t worth it and that you prefer to be dead. And after all, you wear your fake smile and hide this to everybody. Yes, appearances are deceptive. I guess Thom York said it well: you’re not living; you’re just killing time. But sometimes people are not killing time, they choose themselves as target and I want you to know that it’s not the answer. Thanks God, I’m feeling better and you can feel better too only if you want to. I know the struggle and I know that it’s a long and hard fight but you can make it! Don’t lose faith in you! I chose to drown myself in music and not in my tears anymore. Music helped me a lot. I can say that it saved my life. I want you to do the same, to hang on something, something you really like and to believe in this thing cause it can be your way out of the labyrinth of suffering. Don’t be ashamed to ask for help, talk about it with your family, friends or a psychologist/psychiatrist because even if you don’t think so, they can help you a lot. But if you hide it, they will never know what you’re going through. And even if you think that they don’t understand you, they will and they will do everything they can to help you! You’re beautiful, you’re worth it, you’re a warrior, you’re amazing, you matter and you’re not alone! So stay strong and never stop fighting. Hope. Hold on, pain ends.